Good morning!
The sun rises on a new day is what I thought of as I walked
out of my house this morning……..at least that is what I initially thought
of. You know when it looks like
everything in the world is crumbling down around you and then for a moment, you
get a break in the storm and you see the light at the end of the tunnel. You think to yourself, maybe today will be
the day things start to get better.
That is what I thought this morning; when I came out of my apartment and saw this:
That is what I thought this morning; when I came out of my apartment and saw this:
Beautiful! Even more so when you see it with your own
eyes. Then the universe reminded me of
my situation; like waking up in the middle of a battle field and forgetting for
a moment where you are and then looking down and realizing you are at the
bottom of a ditch with a broken leg.
I
get to school, I open the back door of my
car and then I see probably the one thing I was really looking forward to this morning
was spilt all over the back seat of my car.
My delicious amazing coffee, all
gone; how sad :(
So onto the original reason I was going to going to Blog this
morning, to give all my wonderful readers and fans and update on my current
situation. So here it goes…………………
I am now officially broke!!! no bueno indeed :(.
I initially started this blog right before I came down here to hopefully bring my situation into light, to try and raise some funds for my departure from Montreal to help make my move to a new country a little easier.
I initially started this blog right before I came down here to hopefully bring my situation into light, to try and raise some funds for my departure from Montreal to help make my move to a new country a little easier.
Unfortunately this blog never raised the funds I thought it would; or to be more precise it did not raise any funds what so ever. The only donation I’ve ever gotten was from a client of mine; which to this day I have not forgotten (merci beaucoup M. Corbeil!!!!!!!), nor do I ever think I will ever forget the amazing charitable act that client did. There are some things or situations in life where the world spits back at you the results you expected and there are other times where certain people amaze you. The downside to that is that it is normally the people you least expect it that step forward and impress you the most; yet the people you expect to have your back normally let you down the most. It is odd how the world works and even more odd is what drives us as humans do kind acts or what we deem we have time for.
I do not know how many times I have heard comments such as “I do not have the money” or “I really do not have the time” yet if the proper situation arises then they all of a sudden they do have the time or they do have the money. I know every situation is different from one person to the next; but do not say you cannot help someone out if you are broke but then the next weekend you are out taking a trip for fun to another island or you are going out on a rum run or skydiving, or whatever activity suits you. For those of you who do not know; a rumrun is you and up to19 of your friends, dancing and partying all night long while drinking alcohol on a moving bus that spends the evening touring the island. Pretty friggin amazing if I do say so myself. I blogged about my own experience on one in one of my earlier posts (if you feel like reading about it *wink*).
I could have actually went on a RumRun last weekend for my friends’ birthday (sorry Michele!!!!), unfortunately I had to kindly decline for obvious reasons; as when I say I do not have the money, I truly mean it. If you do not feel like going; then be honest and say “I do not want to go”. I think honesty goes much further in life than dishonesty. I do not see why our society feels that it is better to lie to spare someone’s feelings that to be honest and maybe hurt them in the process. Personally I prefer honesty, sometimes I may hurt people and sometimes they may hurt me but at least it is the truth. Nothing hurts more than someone close to you lieing to you and then you finding out the truth later on down the road. Not that I am not guilty of such things as well but it is something I continually strive to improve on.
Which brings me to another random thought about something we all do; Procrastination! How many things in life do we push aside and say to ourselves “I’ll get to that later”. Something I have said to myself a many a times and that is exactly what I did with my blog when I decided I no longer had the time to spend on the computer. It goes to show you what procrastination and laziness can lead to. I remember it just like it was yesterday, me telling myself “it has only been a week since you last post; after this weekend for sure”; next thing you know it was it was two weeks, then a month, then several months and now, well now I’ve successfully completed another four semesters of vet school with hopefully successful completion of my 6th semester. So it has been close to a year and five months since my last blog posts; which to be honest when I saw the date I said to myself:
“F**k me; has it really been that long?!”.
After re-reading my stories and experiences from my first semester on this island; I have to say that probably one of my biggest regrets is not having spent the time to continue my blog on a daily or weekly basis. Which only emphasizes the last point I was making; don’t be a procrastinator!!!!!!!!! If you got something to do; do it NOW! Not later! Or at least do the best you can haha :P
Unfortunately despite my best efforts and the best efforts of
many back home; this may be my last semester or I should say more this will
most likely be my last semesters. One
of the hardest things to admit openly to people is the fact that you need help
and it is even more difficult to ask for financial help from others. I did that last semester; I openly spoke to
a few of about my situation at the time and the kind of muck I was standing in. I even went as far as to openly admit on our
class (Greenies) website; that I could no longer afford to be on this island
and the way it stood I had just enough money to pay for 6th semester
but that 7th semester was greatly in doubt. I decided to try and throw a party to have
my entire semester together to have a good time and at the same time raise
enough money to hopefully pay my cost of living on this island and ideally a
part of my tuition. In the end, it was a
lot of effort for not much return. I
made only 1000ec (about $370us); obviously any amount helps but in the end it
barely made a dent or contribution to my cause. I think part of it was bad timing (there was the 7th semester
banquet, which is like their graduation party) but part of it comes to what I was saying at the beginning of this
blog about how people make time or have money for the things they so
choose. I poured my heart and emotions
out and the people that stepped forward to help me were the people I least
expected (Courtney B. + Samantha S. you will forever have a place in my heart) and some of the people I expected to be there disappointed me the
most (which won't be named on a public forum).
Money drives this world and most of the people in it and it is
unfortunate that Americans do not know how lucky they are in regards to the
amount of money their government is willing to give them to fund their
educational futures. On the flip side,
the sad part is how expensive it is to fund their education; so I guess it is a bit of a trade-off. Still; what I wouldn’t give for that negative
trade-off at the moment. The Canadian
financial institution is a little different and they have a cap or a limit on
how much they give. Sadly that cap is
only about half of my total tuition and as stated I am tapped out!
So as it stands today; I have exhausted all possible sources
back home to try and get money so I could at least finish my time here on this
island and at least get to my clinical year before being forced to stop. Not sure what else to do and I no longer
know who else to ask; I feel like I have tried all possible options besides
selling my body for those other kinds of services, which has been recommended
to me by a couple of people in the past :S
Although one of my friends; recommended I try emailing a bunch of rich people explaining my situation. Which I thought it wouldn't hurt to try, or perhaps if I am lucky one of those amazing rich entrepreneur which just stumble across my site and say; WOW this kid deserves a break. *sigh* Wouldnt that be sweet; soooooooo just in case............. Bill Gates; Warren Buffet; Larry Ellison; Charles &David Koch; Jim &Alice Walton; S. Robson Walton; Michael Bloomberg; Richard Branson; OPRAH!!!!!!!! Who knows maybe one of them searches their name on a regular basis haha :P This same friend also offered to give me a part of his savings (Shaunt! you have no idea what that meant to me or how it reflects what kind of person you are; thank you from the bottom of my heart!); which brings me back to that comment I made previously about how certain people can just completely amaze you; or forever change your perspective on an idea or concept.
Although one of my friends; recommended I try emailing a bunch of rich people explaining my situation. Which I thought it wouldn't hurt to try, or perhaps if I am lucky one of those amazing rich entrepreneur which just stumble across my site and say; WOW this kid deserves a break. *sigh* Wouldnt that be sweet; soooooooo just in case............. Bill Gates; Warren Buffet; Larry Ellison; Charles &David Koch; Jim &Alice Walton; S. Robson Walton; Michael Bloomberg; Richard Branson; OPRAH!!!!!!!! Who knows maybe one of them searches their name on a regular basis haha :P This same friend also offered to give me a part of his savings (Shaunt! you have no idea what that meant to me or how it reflects what kind of person you are; thank you from the bottom of my heart!); which brings me back to that comment I made previously about how certain people can just completely amaze you; or forever change your perspective on an idea or concept.
So when life craps on you, you need to just clean yourself
off and keep on trucking. That is all I
can do and hope in the end that one day I can still complete my dream of being
a veterinarian; a dream that I started all those years back and at the time it
seemed quite impossible (heck; my school counsellor even said so; so wrong; but thats another story) but there is one thing I have always believed and I
still believe and that is if you stop trying you’ll never get anywhere but with
enough effort and time even the impossible can become possible. Such as the concept of a drop of water slowly carving its way through a giant boulder.
So I am hoping that the impossible will
become the possible again; until that time I shall keep on blogging and
describing the rest of my time on this island; whether it be for a month or
until the end of April, I’ll keep doing what I have always done and hope that
things will work itself out.
To all of my friends who have helped me in the past; you will
never know how much you have touched my heart and I will never forget the kind
acts you have done for me.
My next post…..I shall try and recap for you my comings and
goings for the last year and a bit.
Although to be honest probably anything other than this semester may be
a bit hazy haha :P
Much Love!
Much Love!
Jonathan =)
